i don't have dreams very often and when i do have them i rarely remember them and when i do remember them they usually aren't that special but this one was kind of interesting.
i was in san francisco with basically my whole family on my mom's side including my recently deceased grandpa, Poppy. we were visiting some friends of ours who live in florida but apparently in my dream they moved to san francisco. my immediate family and i were the last ones to get there, and for one reason or another i didn't go say hi to everyone (they were all outside) and i just went inside. then one of my old friends (whom i haven't talked to or seen in a long time) came over and i hung out with them which is really weird cause 1) i was at someone else's house 2) i hadn't even said hi to everyone and 3) i don't really hang out with this person anymore. eventually i made my way outside where i was harrassed by my family members (mainly my mom and one of my aunts) for not having said hello in the first place. this may not sound so bad, but it was terrible! they were yelling at me a lot and they wouldn't let me get a word in or even defend myself! my one aunt was the worst and my mom wasn't much better and i ended up crying cause i was getting so upset and frustrated. i mean, i was balling and sobbing i was getting so upset, but at least my one aunt was trying to get everyone to back off me (she's usually pretty chill, even in real life). finally i got my defense out that i didn't say hi because i was tired, not feeling good, and my friend was over and i didn't want to ditch him, but that still wasn't good enough. so i went around (with a very wet and still crying face) and kissed and said hi to everyone, including Poppy. Poppy always stood up for me in real life and he did this time too (he didn't like to see his grandchildren upset). Poppy also helped calm me down and made me feel better, without saying a word (he never was much of a talker). my one uncle gave me a hug and seemed fine about the whole thing. i remember seeing our family friends when i got to the house, but they weren't there for me to greet and i don't remember greeting or seeing my brother, other uncle, or any cousins. i was still so upset that i got into our car and drove the half hour or a little more home (to illinois from san fran? messed up, right?) by myself even though, as with in real life, i only had my learning permit. actually, i started off with the car on auto pilot, but decided that would be too conspicuous and i might get caught. i drove down some weird roads and almost lost control until i met up with a busload (or maybe van load) of kids from school at this hotel. i'm not sure why they were there, but one of them whom i'm decent friends with gave me directions to get home (i didn't want to stay the hotel with them). i got home after having gotten to take my friend home with me as i'd wanted to, and eventually my family got home too. surprisingly, my mom wasn't that upset (though i still was). i was playing super smash bros in the basement when my friend, someone else(i think an older, maybe college/older high school female), and a younger kid (a boy) came down and started talking with me and things just kinda died out from there and i soon woke up.
so do i take any meaning from this? i'm not a very supersticious person, but i do not write something off immediately no matter how fantastic it may seem. so there were a few points in the dream i found particularly odd/interesting and here are my comments and speculations on their meaning and significance:
1) i was in san francisco - my mission trip there, my interest in californian colleges, and the fact that it was so close to home (in the dream) and that it was emphasized that i was there makes me wonder a bit about my future.
2)Poppy - i have moments where i really really really miss my grandpa. he was one of my favorite if not my favorite person in the whole world and i notice his abscence, especially when i'm with my family and certain family friends (especially those who were in my dream). his calming me down and not adding to my already very upset state without having to really do anything except be there reminds me that Poppy really was, and continues to be, a source of strength in my life. it was also nice to see him again... i do miss him so so much.
3)my old friend - if it seems like i've had some kind of explanation or insight to the previous points (which i don't think i do) then i'm sorry to say that i have no idea about this one, i just find it odd that it was this person. i don't really think about him anymore and he wasn't even one of my best friends, yet i still cared about not being rude or leaving him out. i got pretty upset in the dream when i realized i had accidently ditched him and i don't even talk to this person anymore! maybe this means i should talk to this person again? i might give it a try (we didn't leave on bad terms in any way whatsoever).
4)the kids from school - my choice to not stay with the kids from school might point to the fact that i really don't get too close to people from my school. i don't feel like i've connected really well with any of them (for various reasons which i don't want to go into) and i already have some really close and good friends through church. however, just as in real life, they are very helpful and i'm on good terms with them (except for a few people, but you can't please everyone).
5)the ending - my mom not freaking out was a nice surprise (that's why it was a dream) and the identity of the last few people was unclear. me playing super smash bros has been very common lately, and i think it's kinda funny that i would dream about it (maybe i should back off it).
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